Confession (last post) :D

It is 1.31am now...2nd day of Chinese new year 2012!!!

Every time I told to myself I won't post any posts anymore
I told myself this blog is mostly all about sad moments
So don't come back...stop blogging....but now
I'm back again....

After i have seen all the posts I had posted...
Oh...I really grow up ^^
I really change a lot.

Memories will always be memory...
We will cry like it just happened.

It is easy to take up something, carry something and
Love someone...but it is very hard to put it down let it go.

After one year for truly love someone
I used to be living with him...not just sms or call everyday
Even quarrel with him. Better than silent.
After one year of living without him...
Still I not used to it...

So, love someone with true heart...
Don't give up easily...
Never regret what you did
Don't be like me...guys

Today...this wil be my last post of blogging.
The only way I will able to stop thinking but not forget
because I know I won't be able to...

Memories...memories....
I wish I will never forget about you...
I wish you will stay in my heart forever
I wish you will not knock my heart and break my heart anymore
I wish I will not have any hopes towards you
I wish I won't be jeolous anymore
I wish i will stop visiting your Facebook
I wish I will not wait for your call anymore
I wish I can move on
I wish I can live without you
I wish you will never forget me as well
I wish you will be happy as I will always pray for you.

For the last time I say this to you
For the last time I confess
Hope god will grant my wish
Three words that I will never say it to you anymore

"I love you"

Bye everyone....
Love you guys for visiting my blog.
Thanks for willing to lend me your time and energy
To listen to my deep side of mine.

Wish all the couples live happily together forever
Wish all the single meet someone that he loves you so much
And meet someone who is the one you want to protect.

Bye,
Loves
Wai Yien :)

2.00am
Good night

I'm back

This blog is full of sad posts....
I think this is the only place for me to split out how sad am I now.

A person can lie, can act in front of me for so long
I wonder how he can do that...
He lies to me on the first day he being close to me......

Why? Am I really the person who easily trick and play?
Why people betray? Is it fun?

At first I'm so angry about it.....
I thought I won't cry, I will be strong
but tears still fall.....

Not one but the others as well
I treat you all with all my heart
but you all see me being betray and lie
and just silence.....

Brother means can help them to lie a girl?
If you all still got a little sense of conscience,
please.....don't do that to other people.
Is hurt....really...not angry but disappointed.

幻想与现实

一直等待的事发生了，却不懂得回应，在一瞬间给毁了。又多一个遗憾了。

这几个月，一直在挣扎，
一直告诉自己，
不要想太多，
不要再幻想了，
他已忘记你，甚至讨厌你。


你又回来了。

感觉好像很高兴，却带来一点忧郁。

也许过去的一些回忆真的伤透了。

害怕历史重演，

害怕再一次离别的痛，

害怕我们没有以前那么的恩爱，

害怕我已不能做到你想要的女朋友，

害怕我们在一次伤害你。

我已失去大部分的信心了，

我已不懂现在的你是怎样了。

我们又在一次相爱了，

却只是短短的几分钟。

又是因我而起，

又是我说错话，

让你再一次灰心了，失望了。

我怎么会忘记呢？

我还记得以前的一点一滴。

我让你感觉到我的绝情。

却不懂得让你感觉我的思念，忧郁。


如果我告诉你这一切，你会怎样想？
会不会说我想多了？会不会相信我？

我到底想要怎样？

该不该澄清？该不该给我们一次机会？

该不该放弃？

Holidays

Wohoo....
still got 8 more days xD

People.....
i'm holiday now....for 1 week
but there are lots of assignments and tests......

Lately...
my heart and mind gone crazy again.....

My mood is like weather....
360 degree change in few minutes...

人的心情就像天气一样，360度转变;但人的记忆却不管怎样转都永不能忘记。

People.........!!!
Omg....
can't believe now is MAY already.

Don't know why i love May so much xD
Sweet lovely May.....
Feel like May will be a great month...

Alright....
Sometime coincidence happen....

Hmm....should i write here?

I think should keep it secret xD

Something happen make me think back all those memories.

Feel confuse now.....

touch but sad

I watched a video.
This video reminds everyone of us who have gone through this.
Let's check this out...

7 stages of relationship.
1. Meeting
2.The chase
3. Honeymoon
4. Comfortable
5. Tolerance
6. Downhill
7. Breaking up

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=youtu.be

A day in college

Craziest day in college....

Don't know why i'm so high today
just randomly being crazy to whole class...
laugh till i'm almost sore throat already.

But sad thing is....they all still can't remember my name ==

Guys...
am i that scary???
someone say i'm scary.....
someone say people scare of me....

am i really too rude to my friend?
until they start to scare of me...

recently i know i really a bit over le....
Sorry ah my friends....

From today onwards...
i will speak nicely....

Hope i can change their mind...
^^

You are moving forward...
I'm still at the same point.

Is not just about love
but also friendship....

Is it true that gemini like me
will always can't get a true heart friend? or partner?

Is it true that we always feel unsave
and not trust any other people?

I'm trying very hard guys...

I can't be the person you all want to...
I really not the person who talk much
I can't really approach you all
don't know why...

If i have 10 friends.....
how many will they know me well or i close with he or she?
I bet no one.....

Imperfect

Imperfect gives us strong will to do better next time but....
the question is...
is there a 2nd chance??
are you sure you can do better next time??

Have fun with
Brenda, I Shuen, Queenie, Wenn sheng,
Han leon, Hui xin, Wan tching and wan ying
at SUNWAY LAGOON.....!!!!!

Amusement park is awesome...!!!
Scream like someone saw a ghost or what.

But still....there is something makes me sad and cry....

When things not allow me to do something
i against it.
When things allow me to do something
i can't do it.

I miss the fun......for last few hours....
I feel loneliness again.....
I feel imperfect again
I feel disappointed again
I miss the chance again

I hate this feeling
I hate repeating something that makes me feel useless
feel missing something....

Suddenly i miss someone again....

Sometime when you have too much fun
you will feel that i still missing something
missing something that you always want to be
just a little bit more
just missing that little thing
that will makes thing different
makes thing perfect

I had done everything with my friends....
but not with my loved one

regretfulness will always be my deep cut scar in my heart.

Bye guys....
A cloudiness day

Rainning

Hey guys....

Finally the weather start to be cooler....

Is raining.....is so cool
i am back to who i am like last year.
Sad...emo....

Everything just so similar....
just like repeating history...

Different people same attitude
Different place same incident
Everything seems like different but the feeling is same....

Who should i talk to...
How should i tell people about this
What i should do

If everything just like rain which will wash away easily
and another sunny day will come.....

Lucky day...

Ladies and gentlemen.....!!!

Yesterday i had started my college.
I was so excited
but my class was so so so so terrible QUIET....
No one i knew....but still i get to make new friends...xD

Okay....let's talk about today....!!! xD
Today is a lucky day...
1st, i finally passed my driving exam.
2nd, when i was alone in college....i meet my friend
3rd, my class has been cancelled....so that i can back home.

Oh....one more thing...
when i am waiting for the lift,
i meet my classmate.....
but they do not say "hi" to me...
i like so sad....like they don't know me.

Then, when i walk in the lift.
I say "hi" to them ....they still can't recognize me!!!!!!!
Slowly....slowly...then i ask them
"you guys don't know me?????"
"I'm from your class...!!!"

Then few second later....
they say " oh.....is you...we really can't recognize you"
"you tie your hair up today....is really different..."

I like...."......................." speechless....
am i look so different when i tie my hair and i don't??? ==

Is it a good thing????
Or not???

okay...that's all for today ...
see ya guys...
bye

Result day

SPM result day....!!!

Every people have different expectation.....
Some aim for straight A+...
Some aim for straight A
Some just aim for few only...

Some people cry because they get 9A+ 1A
Some people cry because they din't get straight A

People who keep on say they sure can't get
but at the end they get straight.

People who always get good result
but at the end they can't get straight.

I'm the second one...
I just get 5A+ 3A 1A- 2B+
I'm really not satisfied with my result.
I don't know why my malay get B+.
Those subject that i always get A but i get B in real...
I cry every time people ask for my result.....=(

Sorry that i disappointed everyone who put high expectation on me...
Sorry to my friends who din't get good result in SPM but i still cry in front of you.
Sorry to my teacher that i din't get what you expect.

Anyway...
I had a great..awesome celebration with my friends at sunway.
Had a crazy day at karaoke...xD

Finally,
maybe today will be our last time meeting each other....
although i can't even talk to you
but glad that i heard your news.

Bye guys....

Miserable

Don't know why...

start from last saturday

i feel very depress....

Maybe is pressure? worry? miss?

I don't know how to say 

how to describe....

Feel so stupid and useless

Don't know what should i do now.............

Everything just haven't settle....

can't settle...

触景伤情

曾经是那么那么甜蜜的情侣分手了
一旦他们再一次相遇
他们却成了最熟悉的陌生人。

同一个地方

同一个时间

同一个情景

却不同的身份。

一个在内一个在外
一个在左一个在右
两个不约而同地互相逃避。

当一对情侣分了，
身边的朋友不停地问个究竟
而且还是在同一个场合下发生。

原本以为可无动于衷，
不过当我一一回答所有问题时，
心里却酸酸地，闷闷地。

在一次在他背后默默地往着
眼泪情不自禁地流下。

虽然很不想离开
虽然我们无语
虽然相隔很远
却还是很想和他待在同一个地方
偶然的偷偷看他
不过我们始终还是必须有一个离开
因为我们都在对方面前演戏
隐藏真真的自己。

原来我还不能当他是朋友
依然放不下。

好想好想念以前
可是却只剩下回忆罢了。

Reminder

Think back from now.....

Let's ask you guys a question...

People who end the relationship first is it wrong?

Do you know the person who say that is more hurt then
the person who listen?

Sometime is hard to explain to other people why you do that.
Sometime we will think why we have to explain?
To protect our image?
To show that you are a good girl or boy?

Love is something and is the only one we can't explain
right?

You still love that person
but why you still want to break?

Reason may be so ridiculous....
other partner may not accept
but is truth...!!

Few months later......

you maybe hate me
or don't even want to be friend with me
(i know that i can't treat you as friend too)

although sometime i feel regret what i did
until now....i still miss you so much
i still cry for you once in the midnight

but one thing i realize....
i miss you but my sensation tell me that
we never can be together anymore....

When we both meet again.....
we may treat each other as stranger
strange than a stranger

Am  i a failure?
Haiz....
I know i just write a stupid post
I just try to lie to myself....

anyway....
i'm not emo again...
i'm just worry about today night party.
I really don't know what should i do when i see him.
Or maybe i just think too much...
maybe he may not even exist in the party...
I just don't know why i still care about this...

maybe is just used to it?

Okay...guys
night...

Why every bad thing i have to go through twice?
or even more and more which i haven't go through yet.

Why i keep on repeating my mistake?

I feel terrible now.
I even feel useless.

Sorry that i disappointed everyone of you.

Phobia

Hey guys....

i have a bad news here....

i fail my driving test on monday....=(

Now i really getting more and more nervous...

i scare i cant make again...

how can i overcome my phobia..??

Anyone??

Next week really a scary week...

3 important things happen all together on next week.

My driving re-exam.....

SPM result come out

State Competition...

Aiyo....

anyone can help me please...

i think i can't live till next week....

gonna get heart attack next week.  

Movie time

Today i have watched "I AM NO4" ^^
lolx....
first time i heard people clap hands in cinema....haha

Is a nice movie anyway.
Go watch guys......

contradict

It is disappointed when people don't believe you can do it.
but actually sometime we should thanks them
because they make us work harder to prove that we can do it.

Hope i really can do it. =)

Another thing is
it is pressure when people believe you can do it
because we worry that we might disappointed them.

Why people always so contradict?

Anyway.....
hope everyone can do their best in everything
and get what they want....
include me..xD

SPM result is coming
Driving test is coming
Competition is coming
Lots of exam result is coming

and future

college life?
scholarship?

Gambateh.....
Wish me good luck.......

Wonderful

A place
A word
A promise
An action

they are something wonderful......

They always try to recall your memories
unexpectedly......

You will feel awesome....sweet...happy...or even cry

You can't imagine you have done something like that.
You can't believe that you have such wonderful moment before

Even is a bad moment....
Even you cry.....you hurt....you sad...you fall

You never regret that you have gone through all these memories

But at the end your heart will pain...for a few seconds

that you might not have all these memories anymore.....
and you miss all these things so much....
even try to pray that if you have second chance...
and give yourself another hope.

****
Sometime people always regret what they did
and they always live in the past...in the history

It is hard to walk out from the past
but if we don't....
how can we have our future...
****

yes..is me again....
emo girl.....^^
nice post right??? xP

if you are just like me....
lets gambateh together...

things never change if we don't accept new things
i'm waiting my new college life...
can't wait for it
but i also do not hope time goes so fast
because my SPM result is coming....too.!!!
Oh my.....my heart is going to stop on that day...
prepare to rescue me....

Wish all the best to my STPM and SPM  friends too...
but not forget myself...

Hope everyone get what they expected result...

I not that greedy...

But i still hope that i could get 10 A+/A
pray hardly from now....

Ok...
thats all for today...
bye guys..xD