A present that never give to you

Break in house!
Break my heart!
nothing left....
nothing to break anymore.
Why don't break my mind, clear my mind.
So i won't keep on thinking.
Do something stupid, repeat my mistake and make me regret.


What should i do now?
I did something terrible and unbelievable.
Is too sudden to me.
I can't believe i will say that.


What am i thinking is it truth?
The truth just explain why i did all those things.
What i have done before is it just a lie?
Why should i lie then?


Is there any chances anymore?
Should i think about that or just forget about it?
If no then how long it take to heal my wound?
You have been so deeply in my heart.
My mind just all about you now.
If yes then what should i do?
Is just too contradict if i say yes.


Why i make it so complicated?

Love isn't blind?

No matter what either one of us did wrong

we just can forgive each other unconditionally. Isn't it?

But i really did something that i can't even forgive myself

so how could i ask you to forgive me anymore.

Is it really the last time i heard that kind of words from you?


Every question just make another question to occur.
Just like what happened to us.


-signed off-

What a gathering??

18/12/09
Yesterday,
3D gathering was held at sunway pyramid.
But so called 3D gathering just 7 persons attended.
(me, yu hsuan, yen lin, chuan wei, shi hui, ser hwei, tzi ying)
3D still had some class fee.
So we use to buy for movie AVATAR.
Overall just needed to pay RM2 per ticket :)

Then,
we went to secret recipe to have our lunch.
We had fun there...and talked along with each other xD
After that,
we took some group pictures.

 Girls only...xD

Chuan wei (the only guy) was the christmas tree ^^

Went to cinema and bought some drinks.

When the movie just started few minutes...

i received a call from my mom.

She said "do you wanna come back?"

I laughed " the movie just start only. why?"

"our house get break in by thieves, come back and check what have you lost"

Gosh...i'm totally speechless and don't know what to to.

I want to watch movie...darm thieves..

We had 3D gathering at sunway 
but the thieves gathered at my house x(

Went back home, what i saw.....my house

Broke my lock..

Where's my lcd??

They even stole the remote control and whole set of tv...

how smart they are!!

Now we use 21 feet small tv to watch (half he lcd) x(

Even XO also stole x(

I don't know why they stole house phone??

Where is my laptop?? Stoled..

That's how they broke my master room door !!!

Can you see many things lost...??

My jewelleries...!!!

How messy??

Omg??

Phone?? Watches?? Wallets??

My brothers gonna faint to clear these..

I lost my portable dictionary(my pmr present)

..and necklace x(

But my roon is neat depends on other rooms.

Maybe they not enough time or they saw too much books..xD

Total lost : LCD, laptop, watches, phones, bag, wallets, moneys, XO, 2 portable dictionary,

signature pad, even my basket also stole to pack the items and jewelleries...x(

Our passport also got stole...gosh...

I think got lost around 30k ba..x'(

Guess what my "beloved" neighbours told us??

Neighbour 1 : I heard somebody shout but no one in. Then i din't care.

Neighbour 2 :  I saw someone carries the LCD, I thought you took your tv to repair.

The car is Waja too same as your car...and they are chinese..owh...(disgrace la)

How smart my neighbours are??? Haiz..

We went to police station to report.

Then they came my house, took some photo, and asked this and that.

They tried to took fingerprint but they said din't have any fingerprint left.

Actually we thought that the polices were not very serious while checking.

They just simply checked and said dont have.

Maybe was not murder case so they just checked around.

At night,

all of us busy clean our house and we gotta found our all resits to claim insurance..

But still some resits where lost and we just can claim 1/3 of insurance only..

still cant get back what we had lost..

We also heard my mom friends house also broke in by thieves.

Her child was in the house too.

Luckily they din't hurt him and just asked him to cover his head.

The child saw them are chinese and they took just 15 mins to stole all the things.

So we suspected that they were same gang and my house was the first incident.

Because we lost the most....x(

My mom kept on blame herself

because din't keep back the jewelleries to bank..

Saw her liked that i also very sad le.

Hope she don't think too much.

Now we quite worry that they will back again

because got some house got broke in few times.

We going to set alarm i think?

Maybe adopt a dog too...

How we hope that our dog is still here...

maybe the thieves won't broke in.

I miss you, my beloved doggy, Victor

Why this world so unfair.

How hard we earn money and work only can leave in this nice house

but what we have just taken by thieves in few mins..

and now they just keep on do the same things to earn money.

Hope they will get caught soon...

Police please do something la...

Haiz...

Now don't know angry or sad???

Just speechless with all of these...

signed off..

Memories

Nothing to do holidays..

Suddenly miss everyone that i changed my life..

So...lets have a flash back of memories...!! ^^

6E/2005

6 years of classmate

now 10 years of friendships..

6E gang..

(Edwin's birthday)

2C/2007

2 years of classmate but lots of memories

Still remember we won for many competitions..xD

Specially CHORAL SPEAKING

We have a blog for 2 cekap too.

www.twocekaposeven.blogspot.com

3D/2008

Sampat boys gang here

Form 3 totally change my life

A lot of first time happened.

All thick and thin make me grown up a lots.

4C/2009

Form 4 life totally different

but next year will be more tough

Learn a lot this year.

3 most important things i have learnt

1. Health and study...which one more important?

2. How to care and love our beloved

3. Clear, know what we do and don't regret

Class party

Luckily we din't streaming.

Next year will be a better year

guys gambateh for spm..xP

Chinese society/2009

Chinese gang here...

No banana..xD

St john/2009

The best and greatest AGM performance..^^

Love st john lots....

Want to grow up?? Join us

Best friends forever

4 years friendship...and more come

Some of them even 10 years..

Although sometime we seldom talk

but still we know our friendship will last forever.

Memories will never fade

And friendship will never lost

May our friendship will last forever

Friends forever...

Muahx

Happy 21th Birthday my bro ^^

Nothing much to say....
Just a cake and wishes...
No present for you xD
As long as i'm truly wish for you..
Just wish you all the best and best of luck in everything.

My bro love to act cool.

And also take picture...xD
This picture quite a long time ago

 but i still remember when we took this picture

At Penang...28/09/08.

That day was a nightmare for me :(

Once again

HAPPY BIRTHDAY...!!

Good more than bad ^^

More than 1 week din't update my blog.

Yeah...yeah....

Good news happened yesterday and today.

First news

Yesterday,

when my family and i were watching movie.

Then suddenly my eldest brother who playing computer

turned around and said something to us.

At first, i really din't get what he said and he repeated.

He finally passed his exam and GRADUATED....!!! xD

But his reaction liked not that happy.

If i was him, i will probably jumped up or cry.

Second news

4 days ago,

I found a box of puzzle.

I thought i was crazy when i said i wanted to do this.

I did this all by my own...and just used 4 days to complete.

I felt so proud..... xD

About Paris...Is just a picture only..Havent start.

1006 pieces...So odd right??

Separated all the puzzles

Completed 4 sides of the puzzle

The sky of the puzzle is the hardest part.

I have to try 1 piece by 1 piece...

2 days to finish the sky.

The 4th day, say hi to Paris...xD

Completed.

Guess what?? Got 6 pieces extra??

Luckily not less but extra.

Third news

Start from today my cousin's maid will stay temporary stay at my house.

This means that we can rest for 3 days without doing housework

Is this consider good news ....YES YES...xD

Now this is bad news...

Went to guide how was the training going on today.

When i was the casualty,

my beloved friend stepped on my spectacle. x(

Although din't broke but has a crack at the middle of the lens...

Can't see the crack from the picture.

Have to wear this spec although is crack

because make a spec is not cheap.

That's all...

Bye guys...

Genting Trip

Just come back from Genting yesterday.
On the way back from Genting,
many cars traffic jam from KL to Genting.
Don't know what time they will reach Genting.
Maybe at night also haven't reach there. xD

Come back from Genting really tired.
My whole body really pain
especially both sides of my shoulder
become blue-black. x(
Gosh...first time play until so serious.

24/11/09 (Day 1)
Welcome to Genting!!
The weather was so cold there.
Couldn't see the nice scenery of Genting.

First thing we did at Genting
were went to indoor theme park.

Wow...a lot of tickets...

Is it cute?? First time i grab this and i get double. xD

Then,
one of my cousin and i went to first world.

long way to first world. x(

Walk from Genting to first world a lot of time.

Tired.

Guess what we did at first world?
Walked around and also.....^^

We bought 2012 tickets. 10pm.

Cost RM13 per ticket.

Last 2 tickets and i got it. xD

At night,
i went for buffer for dinner. Cost RM63.45.
Gosh...So expensive.
Felt so sorry.
I tried to eat a lot. But sorry i'm too full.

After dinner,
then went for movie xD.
Felt a little bit not comfortable while watching movie.
Because of the guy sat beside me. x(
End of the day....

25/11/09 (Day 2)
I couldn't sleep well last night.
Almost liked din't sleep.
So, 7 am i woke up and prepared went to outdoor theme park.

Say hi to theme park. xD

At Genting, everything is expensive.

We got to ride all of the games i think
except that Solero shot (don't know what the name).
I still don't want to die first ^^
no needed to experience what the feeling of jumping from the top.

This pirate ship is not scary but is funny.

Both side of the people who are siting at the end of the ship

waiting each other to shout first. xD

Flying coaster

Have to pay extra for this.

Cost RM10 per ticket.

But is worth it.

This is the game my shoulder get blue-black.

i think so.

At night,
Don't know why they ate so expensive for dinner.
Cost 1000++

Chicken

Big prawn

"snow fish"

abalone and shark fin

abalone

Dont know what is this.

Taste weird weird.

But they say good for skin.

After dinner,

we went for outdoor theme park until 10pm.

I thought i could rest already.

But my dear fellow cousins,

they still wanna played.

11pm finally they finish played.

Good night. ^^

Total up.

4000++ points. xP

A lot of cup. ^^

They used dont know how much money to play and

changed for these things.

These are mine ^^

So cute. muahx

26/11/09 (Day 3)

Slept for almost 10 hours

but i still felt so tired.

Whole body couldn't move. Ouch..!!

1pm, is time to say goodbye to Genting.

Durian tarts.

yummy xD

Thats what we always buy before

we back from Genting.

When i am playing,

i really enjoyed 

but when i'm free or walking around

i start to think again. x(

This Genting trip i don't know happy or sad. 

Just know our distance getting further and further 

as the time goes by.

Travel and people in distant place

Morning,

i had read a newspaper about my star.

It wrote that

"Your mind is far away.

Mostly you are thinking about

things to do with travel

and the people in distant places.

Back to reality. Gemini"

Gosh..

it's truth!! Absolutely correct.

But not just today.

Few days before i had started to think about it.

Afternoon,

i received a message from my friend.

He told me that they will be discuss about

the Genting trip tonight 10pm.

And he also wrote at facebook to remind them.

Tomorrow i'm going Genting.
But  i'm not really feel excited.
I try to be enjoy and happy.
But i still feel disappointed.
I just cant stop thinking.

They will be going Genting without me again.
They will be talking about
how fun they are at Genting,
how enjoy they are next time i see them.
I will once again feel that i'm left out
and cant even join their conversation.
I need to prepare listen to them
pretend that i'm enjoy listening to them
act that i'm happy.

I believe everybody will do something
they feel regret and unforgivable.
Everybody will try to do their best
so that it will not happen again
and make them regret again.

I'm trying not to let anything make me regret.
I'm trying me best.
But it seem now i cant do anything.
Same thing still happen.

From form 3 mid term break,
i had done many thing that i felt regret.
Although how much effort i have put on
how much time i have spent to do 1 thing
but still many times i fail....
Every time i fall down
i have to stand up by my own
without anybody help
because no one can help me
but just me can only help myself.

How to help myself?
Doing my best is not enough.
Put all my effort is still not enough.
Once thing i should have and is a must
that is how to think in the positive way.

When everything i start to do
i put a lot of hope...a high hope.
That why i always fall badly when comes to a fall.
So, i will now start to think to the worst condition
whenever i start to do or plan anything.
So when we success,
there will be a surprise.
While when we fail,
at least we have prepared ourselves at the beginning.

That what i learnt from a television program.

This is not a bad idea.

I should try it out.

But i promise myself
one day when i have grown up.
When i can decide everything myself,
i will do anything to achieve my dream and target.
Of course not in the bad way.

Hope next post i will write something that is more happy.
Genting post probably.
Bye