Complicated

22/12/2010
Went to summit.....
Went to buy present for my parent 25th anniversary.....

Having one day out with you
i feel different.....
actually not as bad as what i think....

but when i come back home and until now
i feel weird again....i can't feel where are you..
my questions pop out again....

i don't know you really busy with your work
or you actually really speechless with me...
but i saw you on facebook ==

after heard you gonna leave me more far away
i feel more unsecure....
i think that time you will more busy than now...

23/12/2010
oh yeah.....
today is my mom and dad
25th silver wedding anniversary....!!!

Have dinner at THE SHIP....
Very nice there.....
Food just nice too....

A bag for mom...
A belt for dad....
Couple silver ring for both of them...
and also secret recipe cake...

Everything goes well....xD
Waiting for next 50th gold anniversary...^^
25 years more....
quite a long time.....

No photo....
because it needs a lot of time...
lazy ah....xD

Back from camp

Just back from camp.
I feel very very tired.
My leg almost can't walk.

About camp.
At Bukit Lagong, Batu Cave.
I had taken 6 exams.
But i have no confident i will pass anyone of it.
Haiz...

Anyway....
We went for jungle trekking, water crossing and obstacle course.
Everyday raining there....
everyday we had to play under rain.
All our bags were wet.
Met a lot of people there.

A lot of things happened there.
Don't know how to tell you guys here.
But everyday every moment i will always remember.

Cry without reason.

5 days camp had over.

But one thing haven't over yet.
What should i do now.
5 days before,
i got thousand words to say.
But now don't know where to start.
How....

'signed off'

Endless night

I hope i will never wake up....
Because i don't want to face the truth.

Bad thing and good thing

Do you guys realize something?

Good thing always just happened once in our life.
And it is always short.

But bad thing always happened again and again.
And always the same thing.
I din't mean to do it again.

Why always like that
always happened on me?

I'm sorry.

I din't mean to find excuse.
I really din't.
Believe me. Can?

It is this is fade?
If i really make through this
it will happen again and again.
How can i make through the next time?

Is it because this not belongs to me?
Is it because i din't tell the truth?
Is it because is not the right time?

How i gonna talk to you?
Answer you?
Persuade you?

Is it a curse?
SPM really is my curse?
Will it happened again?
No....tell me no...

I thought after spm is a happy time
but this is only a start.

Full of question mark????

Why life full of choices??
Why we always have to choose?
Why we need to decide something that we don't know how to choose?

Why we have to choose something that we think is important to us?

Between friend and family.
Which one will you choose?

Between friend and future.
Which one will you choose?

Between love and St John.
Which one will you choose?

Why we have to make such a cruel decision?
Why can't everything just stay beside us?
Forever?

My mind just gonna break down
although exam has ended.

After SPM life

Hooray....
Still got 1 more subject and 2 more papers....
but feel like finish already.

After spm mean i'm gonna start a new life
making new friends
making choice for future
going to new college...

But i still don't know where to go...
what should i do....?????

Preparing for war

Hey guys...
I know you guys miss me...xD

I haven't update my prom night....
No time....x(

10 days to go...

I'm still not ready for war....

My brain almost burst already...

Everything like come out from my brain...
How????

Anyway...
i will leave my blog until after spm xD

Only i will come back and update ya..

See you guys...

Straight A++++

I am going to get you in my hand....

Please wish me ya....

May God will bless me too ^^

Bye