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Confession (last post) :D

2012-01-24T02:07:00.002+08:00

It is 1.31am now...2nd day of Chinese new year 2012!!!

Every time I told to myself I won't post any posts anymore
I told myself this blog is mostly all about sad moments
So don't come back...stop blogging....but now
I'm back again....

After i have seen all the posts I had posted...
Oh...I really grow up ^^
I really change a lot.

Memories will always be memory...
We will cry like it just happened.

It is easy to take up something, carry something and
Love someone...but it is very hard to put it down let it go.

After one year for truly love someone
I used to be living with him...not just sms or call everyday
Even quarrel with him. Better than silent.
After one year of living without him...
Still I not used to it...

So, love someone with true heart...
Don't give up easily...
Never regret what you did
Don't be like me...guys

Today...this wil be my last post of blogging.
The only way I will able to stop thinking but not forget
because I know I won't be able to...

Memories...memories....
I wish I will never forget about you...
I wish you will stay in my heart forever
I wish you will not knock my heart and break my heart anymore
I wish I will not have any hopes towards you
I wish I won't be jeolous anymore
I wish i will stop visiting your Facebook
I wish I will not wait for your call anymore
I wish I can move on
I wish I can live without you
I wish you will never forget me as well
I wish you will be happy as I will always pray for you.

For the last time I say this to you
For the last time I confess
Hope god will grant my wish
Three words that I will never say it to you anymore

"I love you"

Bye everyone....
Love you guys for visiting my blog.
Thanks for willing to lend me your time and energy
To listen to my deep side of mine.

Wish all the couples live happily together forever
Wish all the single meet someone that he loves you so much
And meet someone who is the one you want to protect.

Bye,
Loves
Wai Yien :)

2.00am
Good night

I'm back

2011-09-18T13:49:00.000+08:00

This blog is full of sad posts....
I think this is the only place for me to split out how sad am I now.

A person can lie, can act in front of me for so long
I wonder how he can do that...
He lies to me on the first day he being close to me......

Why? Am I really the person who easily trick and play?
Why people betray? Is it fun?

At first I'm so angry about it.....
I thought I won't cry, I will be strong
but tears still fall.....

Not one but the others as well
I treat you all with all my heart
but you all see me being betray and lie
and just silence.....

Brother means can help them to lie a girl?
If you all still got a little sense of conscience,
please.....don't do that to other people.
Is hurt....really...not angry but disappointed.

幻想与现实

2011-05-24T11:14:00.005+08:00

一直等待的事发生了，却不懂得回应，在一瞬间给毁了。又多一个遗憾了。

这几个月，一直在挣扎，
一直告诉自己，
不要想太多，
不要再幻想了，
他已忘记你，甚至讨厌你。

你又回来了。

感觉好像很高兴，却带来一点忧郁。

也许过去的一些回忆真的伤透了。

害怕历史重演，

害怕再一次离别的痛，

害怕我们没有以前那么的恩爱，

害怕我已不能做到你想要的女朋友，

害怕我们在一次伤害你。

我已失去大部分的信心了，

我已不懂现在的你是怎样了。

我们又在一次相爱了，

却只是短短的几分钟。

又是因我而起，

又是我说错话，

让你再一次灰心了，失望了。

我怎么会忘记呢？

我还记得以前的一点一滴。

我让你感觉到我的绝情。

却不懂得让你感觉我的思念，忧郁。

如果我告诉你这一切，你会怎样想？
会不会说我想多了？会不会相信我？

我到底想要怎样？

该不该澄清？该不该给我们一次机会？

该不该放弃？

Holidays

2011-05-18T00:54:00.000+08:00

Wohoo....
still got 8 more days xD

People.....
i'm holiday now....for 1 week
but there are lots of assignments and tests......

Lately...
my heart and mind gone crazy again.....

My mood is like weather....
360 degree change in few minutes...

人的心情就像天气一样，360度转变;但人的记忆却不管怎样转都永不能忘记。

2011-05-02T22:48:00.000+08:00

People.........!!!
Omg....
can't believe now is MAY already.

Don't know why i love May so much xD
Sweet lovely May.....
Feel like May will be a great month...

Alright....
Sometime coincidence happen....

Hmm....should i write here?

I think should keep it secret xD

Something happen make me think back all those memories.

Feel confuse now.....

touch but sad

2011-04-23T12:32:00.000+08:00

I watched a video.
This video reminds everyone of us who have gone through this.
Let's check this out...

7 stages of relationship.
1. Meeting
2.The chase
3. Honeymoon
4. Comfortable
5. Tolerance
6. Downhill
7. Breaking up

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=youtu.be

A day in college

2011-04-15T22:47:00.000+08:00

Craziest day in college....

Don't know why i'm so high today
just randomly being crazy to whole class...
laugh till i'm almost sore throat already.

But sad thing is....they all still can't remember my name ==

Guys...
am i that scary???
someone say i'm scary.....
someone say people scare of me....

am i really too rude to my friend?
until they start to scare of me...

recently i know i really a bit over le....
Sorry ah my friends....

From today onwards...
i will speak nicely....

Hope i can change their mind...
^^

2011-04-10T22:47:00.000+08:00

You are moving forward...
I'm still at the same point.

Is not just about love
but also friendship....

Is it true that gemini like me
will always can't get a true heart friend? or partner?

Is it true that we always feel unsave
and not trust any other people?

I'm trying very hard guys...

I can't be the person you all want to...
I really not the person who talk much
I can't really approach you all
don't know why...

If i have 10 friends.....
how many will they know me well or i close with he or she?
I bet no one.....

Imperfect

2011-04-10T22:22:00.002+08:00

Imperfect gives us strong will to do better next time but....
the question is...
is there a 2nd chance??
are you sure you can do better next time??

Have fun with
Brenda, I Shuen, Queenie, Wenn sheng,
Han leon, Hui xin, Wan tching and wan ying
at SUNWAY LAGOON.....!!!!!

Amusement park is awesome...!!!
Scream like someone saw a ghost or what.

But still....there is something makes me sad and cry....

When things not allow me to do something
i against it.
When things allow me to do something
i can't do it.

I miss the fun......for last few hours....
I feel loneliness again.....
I feel imperfect again
I feel disappointed again
I miss the chance again

I hate this feeling
I hate repeating something that makes me feel useless
feel missing something....

Suddenly i miss someone again....

Sometime when you have too much fun
you will feel that i still missing something
missing something that you always want to be
just a little bit more
just missing that little thing
that will makes thing different
makes thing perfect

I had done everything with my friends....
but not with my loved one

regretfulness will always be my deep cut scar in my heart.

Bye guys....
A cloudiness day

Rainning

2011-04-08T22:29:00.001+08:00

Hey guys....

Finally the weather start to be cooler....

Is raining.....is so cool
i am back to who i am like last year.
Sad...emo....

Everything just so similar....
just like repeating history...

Different people same attitude
Different place same incident
Everything seems like different but the feeling is same....

Who should i talk to...
How should i tell people about this
What i should do

If everything just like rain which will wash away easily
and another sunny day will come.....

Lucky day...

2011-03-29T15:12:00.000+08:00

Ladies and gentlemen.....!!!

Yesterday i had started my college.
I was so excited
but my class was so so so so terrible QUIET....
No one i knew....but still i get to make new friends...xD

Okay....let's talk about today....!!! xD
Today is a lucky day...
1st, i finally passed my driving exam.
2nd, when i was alone in college....i meet my friend
3rd, my class has been cancelled....so that i can back home.

Oh....one more thing...
when i am waiting for the lift,
i meet my classmate.....
but they do not say "hi" to me...
i like so sad....like they don't know me.

Then, when i walk in the lift.
I say "hi" to them ....they still can't recognize me!!!!!!!
Slowly....slowly...then i ask them
"you guys don't know me?????"
"I'm from your class...!!!"

Then few second later....
they say " oh.....is you...we really can't recognize you"
"you tie your hair up today....is really different..."

I like...."......................." speechless....
am i look so different when i tie my hair and i don't??? ==

Is it a good thing????
Or not???

okay...that's all for today ...
see ya guys...
bye

Result day

2011-03-23T21:44:00.002+08:00

SPM result day....!!!

Every people have different expectation.....
Some aim for straight A+...
Some aim for straight A
Some just aim for few only...

Some people cry because they get 9A+ 1A
Some people cry because they din't get straight A

People who keep on say they sure can't get
but at the end they get straight.

People who always get good result
but at the end they can't get straight.

I'm the second one...
I just get 5A+ 3A 1A- 2B+
I'm really not satisfied with my result.
I don't know why my malay get B+.
Those subject that i always get A but i get B in real...
I cry every time people ask for my result.....=(

Sorry that i disappointed everyone who put high expectation on me...
Sorry to my friends who din't get good result in SPM but i still cry in front of you.
Sorry to my teacher that i din't get what you expect.

Anyway...
I had a great..awesome celebration with my friends at sunway.
Had a crazy day at karaoke...xD

Finally,
maybe today will be our last time meeting each other....
although i can't even talk to you
but glad that i heard your news.

Bye guys....

Miserable

2011-03-21T22:06:00.000+08:00

Don't know why...

start from last saturday

i feel very depress....

Maybe is pressure? worry? miss?

I don't know how to say

how to describe....

Feel so stupid and useless

Don't know what should i do now.............

Everything just haven't settle....

can't settle...

触景伤情

2011-03-19T23:30:00.001+08:00

曾经是那么那么甜蜜的情侣分手了
一旦他们再一次相遇
他们却成了最熟悉的陌生人。

同一个地方

同一个时间

同一个情景

却不同的身份。

一个在内一个在外
一个在左一个在右
两个不约而同地互相逃避。

当一对情侣分了，
身边的朋友不停地问个究竟
而且还是在同一个场合下发生。

原本以为可无动于衷，
不过当我一一回答所有问题时，
心里却酸酸地，闷闷地。

在一次在他背后默默地往着
眼泪情不自禁地流下。

虽然很不想离开
虽然我们无语
虽然相隔很远
却还是很想和他待在同一个地方
偶然的偷偷看他
不过我们始终还是必须有一个离开
因为我们都在对方面前演戏
隐藏真真的自己。

原来我还不能当他是朋友
依然放不下。

好想好想念以前
可是却只剩下回忆罢了。

Reminder

2011-03-19T00:38:00.002+08:00

Think back from now.....

Let's ask you guys a question...

People who end the relationship first is it wrong?

Do you know the person who say that is more hurt then
the person who listen?

Sometime is hard to explain to other people why you do that.
Sometime we will think why we have to explain?
To protect our image?
To show that you are a good girl or boy?

Love is something and is the only one we can't explain
right?

You still love that person
but why you still want to break?

Reason may be so ridiculous....
other partner may not accept
but is truth...!!

Few months later......

you maybe hate me
or don't even want to be friend with me
(i know that i can't treat you as friend too)

although sometime i feel regret what i did
until now....i still miss you so much
i still cry for you once in the midnight

but one thing i realize....
i miss you but my sensation tell me that
we never can be together anymore....

When we both meet again.....
we may treat each other as stranger
strange than a stranger

Am i a failure?
Haiz....
I know i just write a stupid post
I just try to lie to myself....

anyway....
i'm not emo again...
i'm just worry about today night party.
I really don't know what should i do when i see him.
Or maybe i just think too much...
maybe he may not even exist in the party...
I just don't know why i still care about this...

maybe is just used to it?

Okay...guys
night...

2011-03-08T22:21:00.000+08:00

Why every bad thing i have to go through twice?
or even more and more which i haven't go through yet.

Why i keep on repeating my mistake?

I feel terrible now.
I even feel useless.

Sorry that i disappointed everyone of you.

Phobia

2011-03-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Hey guys....

i have a bad news here....

i fail my driving test on monday....=(

Now i really getting more and more nervous...

i scare i cant make again...

how can i overcome my phobia..??

Anyone??

Next week really a scary week...

3 important things happen all together on next week.

My driving re-exam.....

SPM result come out

State Competition...

Aiyo....

anyone can help me please...

i think i can't live till next week....

gonna get heart attack next week.

Movie time

2011-02-26T22:53:00.000+08:00

Today i have watched "I AM NO4" ^^
lolx....
first time i heard people clap hands in cinema....haha

Is a nice movie anyway.
Go watch guys......

contradict

2011-02-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

It is disappointed when people don't believe you can do it.
but actually sometime we should thanks them
because they make us work harder to prove that we can do it.

Hope i really can do it. =)

Another thing is
it is pressure when people believe you can do it
because we worry that we might disappointed them.

Why people always so contradict?

Anyway.....
hope everyone can do their best in everything
and get what they want....
include me..xD

SPM result is coming
Driving test is coming
Competition is coming
Lots of exam result is coming

and future

college life?
scholarship?

Gambateh.....
Wish me good luck.......

Wonderful

2011-02-16T21:56:00.000+08:00

A place
A word
A promise
An action

they are something wonderful......

They always try to recall your memories
unexpectedly......

You will feel awesome....sweet...happy...or even cry

You can't imagine you have done something like that.
You can't believe that you have such wonderful moment before

Even is a bad moment....
Even you cry.....you hurt....you sad...you fall

You never regret that you have gone through all these memories

But at the end your heart will pain...for a few seconds

that you might not have all these memories anymore.....
and you miss all these things so much....
even try to pray that if you have second chance...
and give yourself another hope.

****
Sometime people always regret what they did
and they always live in the past...in the history

It is hard to walk out from the past
but if we don't....
how can we have our future...
****

yes..is me again....
emo girl.....^^
nice post right??? xP

if you are just like me....
lets gambateh together...

things never change if we don't accept new things
i'm waiting my new college life...
can't wait for it
but i also do not hope time goes so fast
because my SPM result is coming....too.!!!
Oh my.....my heart is going to stop on that day...
prepare to rescue me....

Wish all the best to my STPM and SPM friends too...
but not forget myself...

Hope everyone get what they expected result...

I not that greedy...

But i still hope that i could get 10 A+/A
pray hardly from now....

Ok...
thats all for today...
bye guys..xD

Single day

2011-02-14T02:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day guys.....!!!

But not for me.....

Can't on facebook today...
everyone are posting those $%^$^$ words...

A lot of things to write
but i'm tired already ^^
Just to update...xD

Night guys.....
Muahx..
Have a sweet dream ya...

Don't stay up late like me oh....

Apologize

2011-02-08T00:44:00.001+08:00

Time flies.....
today is 6th day of Chinese New Year already.

Everyone have grown up.
We become more mature....
We are welcoming different kind of challenges.

My friends,
I can tell you that i have grown up too.
I have gone through so many things.
And a lot if things are waiting for me to pass through.
I know is tough...very tough.

I know that i always write many sad stories here.
This blog is the only way i can tell my sad story.
Although it is just part of it.
because i can't tell my friends in front of them
because i know i will cry.

Love may make me cries a lot
but love make me happy and think more too.

If you are reading my blog,
sorry that you have a cry baby friend ya...^^

26th of jan

2011-01-26T23:40:00.001+08:00

today is a colourful day

1st
today is my 1st day of driving
overall ok
but just when i reach my home
when i release my stering
my whole body suddenly feel no more energy.

2nd
oh my....
my so called "didi"
call me on 2330pm.
and say HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!

He says: " today not your birthday meh? I thought is 26th?"
Me: " yes is 26th...but not january.....!!!! Is MAY....!!!"

3rd
Oh my...again
i did something crazy...
something embarras
haiz.....

things can start easily but end hardly......

2011-01-26T15:59:00.006+08:00

why why why.....
i try not to think
not to mention
not to do something crazy

but i still think about it
i still listen someone talking about it
i still do something crazy.....embarrass...
ish....

Time

2011-01-24T20:34:00.000+08:00

my friend says time can heal my wound
but one thing i have to do is...........
i need to let go.

but i realize i never let go before.

2011-01-23T22:59:00.000+08:00

we seem like forgetting many parts of our memories
but these memories will always stay in our deep heart
which we can never be remembered.

we believe something that is not truth called misunderstanding.
we can't accept something that is truth called understanding.

10th

2011-01-10T13:22:00.001+08:00

Out of sight, out of mind.

But my mind still remembered clearly.

Everything, every moment.

I wish i never use facebook.

because i just can't stop searching.

i am the one who choose this...

Competition is coming....

maybe i can't help them much

but i wish i can help them out.

Win all the prizes....

College is coming too....

But i still haven't registered.

New life is coming...

but i still haven't prepared.

I'm still living in the past.....

I just can't believe everything become past tense.

No more future tense.

sat activity

2011-01-08T22:42:00.001+08:00

today is a cloudy day....
but my hand very hot...
splashed by hot water before go to school for activity.
ouch...pain ah....now still pain :(

then go to KLCC for education fair....
after back from there...
i feel more confuse...very very confuse.....

oh yeah.....
i saw leng zai there..xD

i feel sorry for my team member....
sorry for can't go for training...

when reached home..
i feel so tired...and headache....x(

end of today story....

6th day

2011-01-07T16:55:00.000+08:00

2nd day for ERU...
today just do nothing in hospital....
no any emergency case.

Just feel pity for the child who hurt very badly
until he doesn't cry?
Glass cut till the lung....x(

When back home and on facebook....
waiting to see some pictures....

I thought i don't miss him anymore.
But i feel bad when i see the pictures...

2011-01-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

I'm actually start my new year badly.....

1/1/11
objection to go genting...........
(3rd time being reject)

2/1/11
make a tough decision.....

Happy new year 2011

2010-12-31T22:02:00.000+08:00

Hey guys....
I don't know whether you are reading my blog....
but thanks for everything.........
thanks for visiting my blog for this whole year.....

I know i might disappoint you guys....
because of my sad story and miserable life....

Anyway...
nothing different till the end of year 2010...
we have to celebrate at different place......

I am waiting my new life......
in 2 more hours....

In year 2011,
My new life is coming...

New collage
New people
New story
New memories...........

Hey....
Wish you guys
HAPPY NEW YEAR.....
and may your dreams will come true....
mine too xD

bye guys...
see you guys next year ^^

Silent

2010-12-28T00:53:00.001+08:00

Today i feel so so quiet....

The more i give, the more i scare.

the longer the time we din't see or talk each other
the more you seem like don't care
although it maybe just a false feeling....

everything have changed
not like last time anymore....

memories make us change so much......

one's love more and more
while one's love less and less

what can we do now?
Haiz.....

Complicated

2010-12-23T23:28:00.000+08:00

22/12/2010
Went to summit.....
Went to buy present for my parent 25th anniversary.....

Having one day out with you
i feel different.....
actually not as bad as what i think....

but when i come back home and until now
i feel weird again....i can't feel where are you..
my questions pop out again....

i don't know you really busy with your work
or you actually really speechless with me...
but i saw you on facebook ==

after heard you gonna leave me more far away
i feel more unsecure....
i think that time you will more busy than now...

23/12/2010
oh yeah.....
today is my mom and dad
25th silver wedding anniversary....!!!

Have dinner at THE SHIP....
Very nice there.....
Food just nice too....

A bag for mom...
A belt for dad....
Couple silver ring for both of them...
and also secret recipe cake...

Everything goes well....xD
Waiting for next 50th gold anniversary...^^
25 years more....
quite a long time.....

No photo....
because it needs a lot of time...
lazy ah....xD

Back from camp

2010-12-20T16:41:00.000+08:00

Just back from camp.
I feel very very tired.
My leg almost can't walk.

About camp.
At Bukit Lagong, Batu Cave.
I had taken 6 exams.
But i have no confident i will pass anyone of it.
Haiz...

Anyway....
We went for jungle trekking, water crossing and obstacle course.
Everyday raining there....
everyday we had to play under rain.
All our bags were wet.
Met a lot of people there.

A lot of things happened there.
Don't know how to tell you guys here.
But everyday every moment i will always remember.

Cry without reason.

5 days camp had over.

But one thing haven't over yet.
What should i do now.
5 days before,
i got thousand words to say.
But now don't know where to start.
How....

'signed off'

Endless night

2010-12-11T00:22:00.000+08:00

I hope i will never wake up....
Because i don't want to face the truth.

Bad thing and good thing

2010-12-10T13:33:00.000+08:00

Do you guys realize something?

Good thing always just happened once in our life.
And it is always short.

But bad thing always happened again and again.
And always the same thing.
I din't mean to do it again.

Why always like that
always happened on me?

I'm sorry.

I din't mean to find excuse.
I really din't.
Believe me. Can?

It is this is fade?
If i really make through this
it will happen again and again.
How can i make through the next time?

Is it because this not belongs to me?
Is it because i din't tell the truth?
Is it because is not the right time?

How i gonna talk to you?
Answer you?
Persuade you?

Is it a curse?
SPM really is my curse?
Will it happened again?
No....tell me no...

I thought after spm is a happy time
but this is only a start.

Full of question mark????

2010-12-10T13:14:00.000+08:00

Why life full of choices??
Why we always have to choose?
Why we need to decide something that we don't know how to choose?

Why we have to choose something that we think is important to us?

Between friend and family.
Which one will you choose?

Between friend and future.
Which one will you choose?

Between love and St John.
Which one will you choose?

Why we have to make such a cruel decision?
Why can't everything just stay beside us?
Forever?

My mind just gonna break down
although exam has ended.

After SPM life

2010-12-10T13:08:00.000+08:00

Hooray....
Still got 1 more subject and 2 more papers....
but feel like finish already.

After spm mean i'm gonna start a new life
making new friends
making choice for future
going to new college...

But i still don't know where to go...
what should i do....?????

Preparing for war

2010-11-11T20:19:00.000+08:00

Hey guys...
I know you guys miss me...xD

I haven't update my prom night....
No time....x(

10 days to go...

I'm still not ready for war....

My brain almost burst already...

Everything like come out from my brain...
How????

Anyway...
i will leave my blog until after spm xD

Only i will come back and update ya..

See you guys...

Straight A++++

I am going to get you in my hand....

Please wish me ya....

May God will bless me too ^^

Bye

2010-10-27T22:22:00.001+08:00

Everything just happen too fast...
Now i don't know what to do already.

It is almost success
but then suddenly it seems like fail again.

2 more days only.
Hope it will change.
Please.....

Thing is changing again

2010-10-22T19:56:00.002+08:00

Hey guys.....
although i don't know thing will change until how.
But i'm telling you guys
thing is changing....a bit and a bit....

Maybe it will not be what i expect
but at least we did talk....we did think back

Oh well,
now i know that
confess is not an easy thing.

7 days to mpt5....
i'm so nervous now....
i don't know what should i do on that day
how should i react....how should i perform in front of you.

Hope it will be a nice day.
Hope you won't make me disappointed.

My friends,
can't wait to meet you guys there.
Must take a lot a lot of photo with you guys.
Come find me xP

2010-10-20T15:04:00.002+08:00

Sometime i wish i am your friend
at least you will come and find me
and talk to me.

When you just in front of me,
I don't know what to do.
I can't even stop and walk towards you.
Even can't heard a single word from you.

Just could see you from far distance.
If time could stop.

Passed-by you is the toughest time.

best part for the day

2010-10-19T18:31:00.000+08:00

The best part for today
is not i din't go to school.
is not i get good result for my pra.
is not i done my forecast result.

The best part is i see you in school.
Although i saw you just 2 days ago
but today you look different.
I have long time din't look at you like that.
Although is far but i won't forget anymore.

Another best part is you did something unexpected.
I'm glad that you keep your promise to me.
Thanks for giving me one last memorable day.

Mixing up

2010-10-16T21:25:00.002+08:00

Went to scholarship interview today.
Everyone seems like wearing so formal.

We are giving 15 minutes to read an article
and 15 minutes interview section.
I'm quite lucky that i read the article quite easy
is about PMR and UPSR.

Anyway,
I lazy to talk about the process
overall the interviewer is friendly.
What i did is smile all the time.

.......................................................................................................................

Another thing is
when you realize many people mix up
your lover with another girl
what will you feel?

But still he is not mine anymore.

It's gone

2010-10-12T18:50:00.000+08:00

Happy moment always short.
Laughter always will disappear....

I feel something wrong with me again...
not sure what is that.

Heart feel abnormal...
Something i want to split it out but i can't find a way.

A lot of things are coming....are going to happen
I feel very scare now.....
I'm not prepared.
But somehow i want them come fast.

Maybe things won't go well.
Better then now i feel like knock to the wall....
or either jump to the sea.

Crazy moment....

2010-10-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

Hohoho....
Everyone say i'm so high today.
I'm the noisiest person in class today.
First time....^^

Finally finish account exam.
Although account is so so so hard and i can't do
but still i'm so high and happy.

Today i'm totally abnormal....
I'm going crazy today....xD
Don't know why.....i'm so happy today.

Starting and ending

2010-10-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

We always run from starting point
and we finish at end point (starting point).

But not everything can back to starting point.
Just like relationship.

10/10/10

2010-10-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Today is a special day for everyone.
A day which only once in our life time.......

But today makes me think about one year ago.
I will never never forget that day....

From a stranger....
we become classmate....
then friends.....enemy.....unofficial.....
official.....and now....
we back to stranger.......
a familiar stranger....

We always argue.....fight....
we hurt each other before.....
we even break...and...back together again...
we sms....and call....shopping...watch movie...
went ir....dance...
we did share the best moment.....

Everything just happened so fast....
and now one year past...

It likes a circle....
everything back to starting point...

But everything every moment...that had happened
will never back to starting point....
Never will disappear....
But everything become memory....
forever lasting memory....

Today we become speechless....
not because we have nothing to say...
because we not dare to say...
we can't tell each other....

Everything look good at first
but we never know the ending....
ending is always unexpected.....unbelievable...

-End-

Chinese lesson

2010-10-08T22:33:00.000+08:00

多少个晚上，因为那些往事，我久久地注视着窗外黑漆漆的一切，难以入睡……
多少个瞬间，因为那些往事，我呆滞地盯着昏暗的天空，任记忆刺痛自己的心房，直至刺穿自己的心脏……
多少个雨天，因为那些往事，我独自撑着伞，穿梭于充满着一对对情侣甜言蜜语的小树林，忧愁的走着，走着……伞下是一张不知是被泪水浸湿还是被雨水打湿的脸，还有那种独属于我的咸咸的感觉……
多少个阳光明媚的日子，因为那些往事，我默默地祈祷着虔诚地渴求着一场暴风雨，因为只有在暴风雨中，才没有人看得见我脸上恣意流淌着的眼泪，因为只有那样，我才可以让自己恣情地去哭……

但只能相思相恋
那就是错过

有很多有情人不能终身牵手
但只能苦苦的思念
那就是遗憾

有很多的爱意无法表达
但只能隐藏在心里
那就是暗恋有很多走错的路不能从头再来
但只能一错再错
那就是迷茫

有很多的痛苦无法倾诉
但只能去自我安慰
那就是隐痛

有很多的佳人不能归属自己所有
但只能去偷偷的欣赏

Nice to read but hard to do it

2010-10-08T22:12:00.000+08:00

怀揣曾经灿烂的梦想，逝去昔日邂逅的尘埃，让所有的过往全部都烟消云散！这一切的一切都不过是轮回中美丽焦点，任何事都不会伴随我们到所谓的每一天！凡尘俗事都只是我们人生道路上最华丽的牵绊，这是我们无法改变的尘缘...

　　在人生的道路上要学会笑看世间百态，不需要把伤心的往事心藏每天。快乐其实一直都在伴随我们度过每一天！要感激那个遗弃你的人——如果她不离开你，你就不知道真爱就在身边，是她让你懂得了真爱价值万千！要感激那个对你使绊的人——如果他不给你陷阱钻，你如何看懂人生的凶险？是他让你明白了做人最基本的要点！要感激那些对你关心的人——如果他们不疼爱你，你又怎么能体会世界的温暖？是他们让你知道了这个世界还有甜蜜在伴随我们度过每一天！

　　做人不需要在离开的时候——仍然做甜蜜余温的迷恋！要昂首挺胸的阔步向前，学会在悲伤的日子里为自己奋战一片天！

　　花朵吐香在春天，只留芬芳一季间，花落之前它不会为自己感到悲哀，因为它懂得来春我还会铺香存满尘世间。流星不求发光永远，瞬间添明就已经足了自己的心愿！所以人生虽然总会有一点挫折，但这没什么大不了事，在摔倒的地方我们可以重新的站起，拍拍身上的灰尘不做任何抱怨！

　　人活着——应该像天空一样，天空虽然有时会下雨，但多数还都是美好的晴天。阴雨绵绵只是偶尔的回味而已，它永远都不是人生的重点！无所谓有，无所谓无...

　　遇到什么事都不要惊慌，静静的思考，冲动只会给我们添加更多的烦恼！我们不需要用放大镜放大我们的悲哀，如果你不刻意的去想——所有的悲哀都将化做过眼云烟！

世态言凉，我们更要进步，脚踏实地的去为自己努力拼搏。

My pain is back

2010-10-08T19:48:00.000+08:00

My pain is back or perhaps never gone away before

Today is suppose to be a nice day but everything change just after recess.

Now I realize the most painful moment in love story
Is not a couple can't be together or further apart
Is when you know the person you love is
avoiding you.

just taking exam in same class
but it makes you to change class
makes you avoid me.

I know why you did that
I know we never can go back to the past
I know I never can treat you as friend anymore
But I don't know when I can stop searching you
Stop thinking about you
I know it need time to heal my wound
But I don't know when and how long.

Today you just hurt me deeply
do you know that?

I try my best to be normal
Not to think about it anymore
But I really can't
I cant accept
what you have done to me.

Today is a big pain
How about 22 days after?
My prom night?
Will you like today avoid me?
Changing place?
Please don't do that to me please.
Can't you let me have a one last nice and meaningful day?
Just once?

My friend?
Will you help me too?
Help me to make a nice day or perhaps night.

In nowhere

2010-10-01T23:00:00.000+08:00

After sejarah and bio papers
Now is just like finish exam....^^

But still i haven't touch my physic and chemistry.

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I still remember one of the moral paper question.
"apakah kesan jika kita tidak merancang masa hadapan kita?"

Oh well,
i'm going for sunway scholarship interview 10 days later.

But now i'm asking myself
why i want to take A-level?

Until now i still don't know what i want to do in my future.
I'm still not sure of it.
I don't know whether my interest is just temporary or what?

I don't know whether is suitable for me?
Can i study well in this?
I can cope with it or not?
I can success in my carrier?
Even i can find a job or not?

I still can't see my future.......

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This week my family are talking about
buying a house at kota kemuning.
It cost a lot....around 600++k

Talking about house
it related to future....
thats why now i'm thinking my future
but i still don't know.....

At last, we decided not to but already.

But after this,
i realize money is actually very important.
Of cause planning for future too.

This exam makes me so stress
is because of this.
I still can't see my As in SPM.
I still can't see my future.
I can't imagine what i will be in future.
Live in hard life or my dream life?

Just 51 days left......
SPM is around the corner.....

I swear i will study very very hard for SPM
after my PRA exam.
If not, I also don't know how.....
Time to think a way to force myself.
Slap myself if i din't do?
Can't eat?
Sound like torturing.....

Should cut off time of using computer and watching tv.

Okay....got to go.
Time to sleep and prepare for tomorrow training.

Movie

2010-09-25T10:54:00.000+08:00

High school musical 3.
Gosh....
I cried when i watched them dance.

"Can I have this dance"
This song makes me think about prom.

I don't know what will happen that day.
I just know that i'm alone.
You may sit so near to me
but you are not belongs to me.

Dream dream dream

2010-09-25T10:45:00.000+08:00

I had a dream this morning.
I was awake because of this dream.

I couldn't remember what dream is it.

A don't know is good or bad.
What i remember is a dream between us.

"日有所思，夜有所梦"

Think about you day and night.

Story during exam

2010-09-24T20:49:00.000+08:00

Day 1
bm paper may out of topic

Day 2
bi not enough time to write
even forget to write name ==

What will happen on day 3 and following days?
Oh no....
i seriously don't know what going on with me..
Haiz

This time sure will worser than previous exam ah.

4 days

2010-09-23T15:10:00.000+08:00

20/09/2010
Girl's six sense is always right.
Or girl always guess right.

From you :
"Yes. Study first."

This words is right
but i just can't accept.

21/09/2010
And now you tell me the truth.

Truth always cruel.
Now i only know i'm the reason.

I have no right to ask you.
But why must choose to leave.

Is the best way for you but not me.
You can concentrate but i just can't stop thinking.

When i choose you that time

you leave me.

Seeing you so close
but i just can't approach you.

22/09/2010
Today is mooncake festival.
Today suppose a day which loves ones gather but not for me.

People always say
when you miss someone
look at the moon....
He maybe looking at it too.

Holding my phone all the time
i'm waiting.....

23/09/2010
Seeing other couples so sweet.

At school,
Every moment
i just can't stop looking outside
searching......

Looking at you
I wonder what are you thinking
Do you miss me as i do?

I really forcing myself to study study...
i just can't do so....

You telling me there is hope.
But you are avoiding me too....
Why?

Give up or keep?

You stole my happiness, my heart and everything.
And now you leave me just a "study"
without any words
without telling me what to do.

Fighting with my mind all the time now......
study and stop thinking........

2010-09-20T16:56:00.001+08:00

School reopened...!!

I thought is a new day
but is not.....

Everything just like last time.
Giving me hope and throw it away again.

3 days past....
now is the forth day already.
I'm still don't know what's going on.

Do i really think too much again?
But is it possible a person can change 360'
in 4 days? or perhaps just in 1 day?

I'm pushing myself and
tell myself you have to find out....
But i realize when i'm standing in front of you
i'm speechless.....
I just don't know how to ask you/
I just scare you will hate me
because i'm too annoying.

I don't know why you always won't
honest to me...
won't tell me what you thinking.....

Simple or complicated

2010-09-15T22:56:00.000+08:00

Love is something that
we never never never
can compare......

Never never never
tell each other
how much you love him or her
how much you have did for him or her
how you have given.....

not because you
don't love or you did nothing
because you love him or her more than
word can describe or list out
because you did more than he or she want.

When we fight....
no one will lose or win....
but everyone hurt
especially when we try to
show how much we did and love.

But we always say...
tell each other.....everything

Sound contradict right?
Or love is complicated.....

Noise and quiet

2010-09-15T22:43:00.000+08:00

14/09/2010
Suppose to be a nice day
but obviously not.
Is a bad day.
I thought suppose to be a day
which make us get closer
but now we get further and further.

No date anymore??
Sound unbelievable.

Is this related to that day?
the day that still have 45 days to go?
Or i not even being invited?

15/09/2010
today sound quiet.....
is very very quiet.
oh well....
i din't expected to be so so serious.
until you have to avoid me
or just i think too much.
But now become something
that will need times and days or weeks or months
to make thing change.

5Kukuh Class party.....

2010-09-10T16:25:00.000+08:00

Oh yeah....!!
Our class party is on
08/09/10
(nice day right??)

Once i stepped into sunway

guess what i saw??

I saw few guys lying on the railway.

Once we step in...

what we say?

Take PHOTO

Toilet

Train....(this picture look cool)

at phot mechine

Sound crazy right??

So big still play bumper car....

7 crazy people

me, bren, shi hui, jena, zen zuan

william,zhi yean

Group photo....

Luckily get to take photo....

Thanks to bumper car...

Smile

Hot and pretty Girls....

Random picture...

Don't know why we love to take this...

Say Goodbye to Shogun...

Oh wait....

Guess how much we eat....??

$$1961

Summary of what we did in sunway:

~take photo

~test my dress (anyway very paiseh)

~Shogun

~bumper car

~ last but not least .......WE SAW LAU KAI FAI..........

Oh well...

this class party quite fun.....

i think we did get more close together.....

-end-

Holidays....

2010-09-10T15:50:00.000+08:00

Oh well....
one week had past....

Can't remember what i did
because i did nothing...!!!

Everyday just
sleep, eat, facebook, shopping, movie..

My target for this holiday:
Finish account, chemistry, bio, sejarah, physic

One week had gone....
i just study account and few chapter for bio..haiz
__________________________________________________________________________
Still got 2 more day....
now i realize something....
Something that i need to do everyday..
and now i stop for 6 days already....
How hard to past my day.....

Hope that time will go faster.....
I miss so much....
Fast come back la.....

A day before holiday.....

2010-09-03T19:10:00.000+08:00

People always say :

everyday is a new day.

I really believe that is truth.

I always believe that thing will change one day.

Today i have a hope

but does not come true.

I tell myself never mind

today does not make it come true

then i will wait for tomorrow.

Everyday i wait and wait

i even try me best to make it come true

but every time i fail to do it.

I tell myself again never mind

i can wait.

I give myself a chance.

Every second passed-by.

Everyday i tell myself the same thing

everyday i feel so tired so disappointed

everyday i feel so sad

even everyday i keep on being the annoying one.

I thought you understand

and you tell me that you understand

but i know you don't.

I finally understand what your feeling.

Waiting really is tough.

But one thing you will never understand

my feeling is 10 times more hurt than you.

If everything i have to say

i have to beg you to do it

then i really feel that i very useless.

Begging someone to do what i want?

sound so cheap....

Do for only one day? Do just to satisfy me?

i feel more sad.

What i want just 5 to 10 minutes....

Why take you whole life to do it.

Is it simple?

Everyday you are breaking my hope,

I really don't want to be an annoying person

who everyday fight with you to satisfy my wish.

I don't want to cry for it everyday.

I really tired.

What you want me to do now?

I everyday tell myself

give you one more chance...one more chance

even i force to tell you a dateline

you still can't do it.

Why you always make me disappointed?

Why always make me want to give up.

I really don't want to give up

do you understand?

Why force me to do that?

Until now i thought you should know i don't want to.

suffer for long period or short?

how long do i need to go through?

What should i do?

moment of silence

2010-08-30T15:57:00.000+08:00

Dear friends,
please don't be like me.

People always say
"believe it"
Believe what you do is not wrong
Believe the person beside you
Believe everything is all right
Believe you can change it.

But now i realize is not truth.
Because i believe i'm not wrong
and now i am the one who gets hurt.
Because i believe the person that always beside me
and now i always cry for that person
Because i believe in everything is all right
and now i start to regret and blame myself
Because i believe i can change something
and now i am the one who change.

p/s: i not trying to say not to believe in everything
Just when you do or decide anything,
please bear in mind......
Make a right decision that you will never regret.

~~How hard i have tried to tell you what i want and what i think.~~
~~How many time i have repeat the same story and words.~~

~~Am i not clear enough??~~
~~You can clear with everything but not about what i say.~~
~~Do you even listen to me once?~~
~~Do you try to understand?~~
~~Do you try to figure it out?~~

~~No.....~~

~~Maybe what i say really not that important.~~
~~Maybe i have no right to ask from you.~~

~~Just a simple thing......~~
~~but it take you whole life....~~

~~I start to feel tired....~~
~~the more i believe...~~
~~the more i feel scare~~
~~the more i lost confidence....~~

~~I won't ask you anything anymore~~
~~i have no strength to tell you anymore~~
~~i have no energy to think and no tear to cry.~~
~~I wont force you anymore....~~

~~End~~

28/8/2010

2010-08-30T15:32:00.000+08:00

Haha....
today went to take "undang-undang berkomputer"
guess what??
i got 49/50....

i'm not trying to show off anyway ^^

few days before....

mom: Do you take the cd from uncle already?
me : No need la... i can just study from the book.
mom : My friend's daughter who very clever and get
   straight As also fail the test.
me : Why you like to compare me with other?
mom : I'm not comparing!! I just want you to use to it with the question.

a day before exam....

bro: Uncle calls me today. He says that he not free these few days.
   So he asks whether you want take other day and he will give cd
   to you tomorrow or just take the test tomorrow?
me : Ok i sure will take the test tomorrow.
bro : Just study the book then sure pass.
mom : If you fail then your own fault ah...You pay yourself
   if you fail the test. I will not pay for you.

lalala......

ps: mom i can do it......believe me
And then today...haha
finally i prove to my mom that i can pass.

Bro's Graduation

2010-08-19T21:00:00.000+08:00

11/7/2010

Yeah....

went to my bro graduation.....

HAPPY GRADUATED ^^

Is this flower nice xD

muahx

Wearing......

Family photo...

Someone very nervous.....

With professor...

sis & bro

ss time

Time to say bye....

That's all...

Short summary for my bro graduation.

Few years later,

it will be my turn. ^^

synopsis

2010-08-13T20:54:00.000+08:00

oh oh oh...
i left my blog for so long already.

There are a lots of thing i want to post
such as :
~St John Annual General Meeting
~My brother graduation
~And a lots more class picture

Will be update after trial exam....

Oh gosh...
my trial paper.....@#@#$
all question seem to be so familiar
but i can't even thing a single word..
Haiz....

......

2010-07-03T22:52:00.000+08:00

What am i doing???
I repeating the same thing
telling the same answer.
Going thru the same thing.

But this more tough...
Haiz....

Another face...

2010-07-03T22:03:00.000+08:00

Hello hello...
seriously don't know what am i saying.
I really want to tell the truth
but i can't.

Sometime lie is not bad at all.
telling the truth will just make someone more sad.
The one who sad will just keep quiet
and pretend that she accept it and happy.

p/s: my dear friends i know you all think
that i am just too annoying recently.
Sorry but you all are the only i can tell anyway.
I will continue to disturbing you all......

Hehe.....

2010-07-01T23:19:00.000+08:00

Skip school for tomorrow...xD
Say no to open day....

Dear parents :
Don't forget to bring cheque book tomorrow!!
From : teacher
(i think every students know what i mean here)

tired....

2010-07-01T23:10:00.000+08:00

Stay back school today for pre-sale.

Everything goes quite well anyway.

Thank to my dear friends...xD

But one sad thing is

i thought we are friend

but you don't trust me.

second thing is

when people don't understand

your situation which you are totally

don't know what to do on it,

and that person even act and talk

rude to you. Sure you will feel bad.

But what if that person is the person

that you really care and close to you.
................................................................................

Searching for someone around
and you can't find it.
You thought someone has gone.
You just don't feel staying there anymore.
Suddenly without notice
someone just appear in front of you.
But someone is already walk far away from you.
Although you miss the chance
to let someone know that you are actually waiting
but still you are glade that
you din't miss the chance of seeing someone
even though is so far away from you.

-end-

1st learning camp

2010-06-25T20:56:00.000+08:00

Well well.....

Time to update my outdated blog.

Yeah yeah...

our 1st St John Learning Camp....!!!!

Lazy typing so many word for 2 days.

So lets see through the photo.

Oh ya...

my role in this camp is

Secretary and Group facilitator (Sympathetic,Purple) ^^

Day 1

Early in the morning...6.30am

all our belonging here...xD

Briefing....plan 2

Preparing....

Members are here..!!

Lets practice how to sing

St John's Song

Waiting-----

Introduce our beloved committee :)

Raising flag

Morning Exercise....Mr Bean dance

Lets dance...

Ice breaking

Discussing

Performing their cheers..

Gambateh

My group xP

I think i left that 2 girls xD

The popular guy

Competing...

Sorry sorry dance.

Of course the popular guy team win =(

Change plan....

Is it cute?? xD

You know what is these for??

They going to throw these cutie bears =*(

Station 1 : Soft toy

Blind folded

Station 2 : Trust walk

Tie their legs

Station 3: Transport Excess

Answering Question

Be careful..!!

Station 4 : Sponge-bob

This girl so Ss right??

Climbing

Station 5: Question mark

Go go go...

their are the best....xD

Hehe...

Station 6 : Ping-pong

Crossing over newspaper with ping pong

Station 7 : Stranded Island

Busy designing shirt...

Finally...

Our shirt and flag xD

Crazy leader

Yeah...!!

Don't go away...=(

Station 8 : Red light green light

No photo for this..sorry...^^

Passing the puzzle

Chicken dance

Punishment dance....

Magarita ??

Lunch time...

Very hungry.....

Rest

World Trade Game

Listening to explanation

My Country...most of us are group facilitators

Brazil....xD

Anyway we WON....

Brazil's president

He very funny la...

Busying earning money...$$

What the guy doing??

Black market....

India

Forget the name already...

and other 3 more too. xP

Evil banker

Recording marks

Table talk

*Water war

Water so so so "clean"

Rest time...

We all are hungry...

thanks to sok kuan's mom food ^^

Dinner time...

My chicken rice..!!!

Playing phone??

Naughty....xD

What she doing??

Nice one la..

Thanks to hoover

Trial theory exam

Stress...

4 people only...

Practical time

Extra lesson

Ss again...

Supper time

Then light off.....night everyone

Day 2
We having post-bottom after
all the members light off....
I think is not really a post-bottom.
Is express feeling time ^^

At 1.00am
Firedrill xP

All members have to wake up =)

Little surprise for Sok Kuan ^^

Can't stop crying...

Yeah..start to blow...

And blow...

And finally...DONE

After that....
few "sampat" people have their talk at outside...
Laugh and do crazy thing...

What are we doing..??

Ouch...fail...

Second time....

Yeah.....Success..xD
Is it miracle...??
Yes....!!

All when to sleep at 4am.
Anyway....just me can't sleep....
Just take a nap for 5 min...
Tired....

Morning exercise
at 6.00am

All so tired....

New friends found

Trial practical exam

We suppose to prepare for photo section

but we just too love to take photo

Cheese...

Closing ceremony

Congrats to all

It may not a nice ending

but still we enjoyed it

and love this camp ^^

Time to clean up...

See ya

~End~

2nd broke in....

2010-04-30T18:08:00.000+08:00

Have a nice dinner at windmill.

But everything goes upside down.....

Suddenly,
received a phone call from my bro.
He said did you all lock the door?
At that moment,
we knew what was going on already.

What i saw when i went back.....

The robbers really disgrace.
Useless men in the world.

that's all for my house break in..

signed off

Speechless

2010-04-24T20:44:00.000+08:00

A lot of things to update
but seriously now no mood already.

Haiz...
My house broke in 2nd time yesterday.
Nothing to steal already la
why still come my house.

Even my pencil box also steal.
Nothing left for my accessory.
My drawer now so empty.

Will be updated when everything is fine.
Wait ya...

Signed off.....

Once in awhile

2010-04-11T22:09:00.000+08:00

Just need to do one thing
and another will just go smooth.
But if you don't then
you have to say bye.

So, is this a good thing or not?

At the beginning is a nightmare for me
but now is a good and wonderful news xD

Bye. ^^

Akai Ito

2010-03-27T22:24:00.000+08:00

Do you believe in destiny??

Watch it....watch it..!! ^^

Anyway is a drama.

For me this drama is very touch

but for you all i don't know lo.

Akai Ito

Thread of destiny

366 的约定

Photo update

2010-03-26T19:12:00.000+08:00

total 12 groups ^^

Our committee members

See ya...^^

20/03/2010

2010-03-21T17:19:00.000+08:00

ONE DAY UNITY GATHERING

Finally, here it comes.

Suppose to wake up at 5am but i'm late.

I can't wake too early...so i jump up from the bed at 6am.

15 minutes to prepare and went to school.

6.30 in the morning

ss awhile 1st before we start work

mine checkpoint

"Feed The Baby and Baby Talk"

porridge

scooping the porridge

passing the porridge

biting the spoon xD

Technical error on this photo..

Feeding the baby

my best partner

baby message

Drinks........

Brenda and I make it..^^

Fall in everyone under the hot sun

Group photo

message from all of you

Our OUG theme : Childhood Colours =)

Din't get to take more photo

because we are too busy.

I learnt a lot of new games haha.....

We end at 3.45pm....

and we have to clean up everything until 4.30 ++.

There is SUPER JUNIOR concert duty

I miss the chance....=(

Why is today not tomorrow or next week or whatever.

Haiz...

Anyway i have no more energy to go for duty

that's the reason i comfort myself.

Have a nice sleep next.

Whole body is so so so tired and

also mentally tired.

okay ..

more photo to update....xD

Bye

19/03/2010

2010-03-21T16:57:00.000+08:00

OUG preparation............!!!

Lots of things......

Souvenir for 4 division

Testing capten ball game

Guess what these shirts for??

Bingo...we wear it to take photo xD

Actually for game purpose.

Is it cute?? Can you guys see me??

The most right below corner is me !!!!

With blue dress and sitting on the car...

Thats the cutest child ^^

Commando course...many tables

Musical chair.....

Arrange for the guests....

Anyways, my hands and legs are like so tired.

Carry chairs and so on...

The OUG 2010 shirt

The fornt

The back.

My name!!! My name!!

I love this shirt so much

not because there is my beautiful name on it

and also is PURPLE!!!!

My best colour.....

The sleeve

That's the end of preparation.

OUG preparation.............

2010-03-19T22:18:00.000+08:00

When to school today for OUG preparation.
My left hand and both legs are so pain
after playing badminton yesterday..xD

But today we still have to set up all check point.
Arrange this and that......
make my hand even worst...!!!

Anyway they say no uploading photo today
because we want totally surprise for tomorrow.

Then, thats all for today....

tomorrow i will upload
all preparation and OUG photo.....

Wait for my interesting and funny photos...haha xD

Lets rock the OUG event tomorrow.....!!!!!!
YEAH.......!
Can't wait for tomorrow.... ^^

See ya..
Muahxx...

18/03/2010

2010-03-19T22:13:00.000+08:00

Went to wen lee house ^^

Photo time...........

Too bored if i write for whole day ^-^

We figuring how to use this??

yummy

we are cooking.......chicken soup

some how is fail....

time to eat xP

doggie...i don't know how to pronounce the dog name.

Finally, we cancelled the jelly part...=(

we ss again xD

mushi...mushi

dangerous wei...

take photo at staircase

what are we looking xD

we are there...!!!

hamster...so cute.

i want !!!

3K..

2 years din't touch racket already...^^

now my hand like broken.

lolx...lame right?? friendly match

take a break at A&W

the most right corner below is mine...!!!

say cheese...

Our beloved amelia's birthday

we celebrate 2 days early for her

which mean on saturday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

okay okay............

there are still 100+++ photo

but is impossible for me to upload all.

But i miss the 6E/2005 reunion.

Feel guilty now :(

all of them change so much

until i can't recognise them.

Never mind...

there are still a lots of chance right?? ^^

that's all for today......

-end-

14/03/2010

2010-03-19T19:18:00.000+08:00

My aunt birthday...............

Lets look at the picture....

I very lazy to type anyway xP

Ah Yat Abalone Forum Restaurant

What i saw when i step inside the restaurant.....

sharkfin....

I don't know what this...??

Many many abalone...are mine!!

The delicious foods

Cake

Birthday girl at the centre

Group photo

Still got alot photo but someone din't upload.......=(

Those photo is mine...xD

Thats all.....

Oh ya....

Happy Sexy 17th Birthday to Yu Hsuan

Sorry for can't attend your birthday party.

I miss a lot of fun there.

May your dream will come true ^^

Long random weeks

2010-03-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

Here's the end of school and
the beginning of school holidays ^^
But my holidays schedule is full...xD
Full of tuitions....and activities...

Guess what happened these few weeks.
A little of emo again.....
that's my life anyway....
If i din't emo means i'm abnormal...lolx

Sometime crying is good for health.
Better than keep in the deep of heart.
I din't cry for 2 weeks when things go upside down
I thought i become tougher but actually
i'm so tired and don't know what to do.
Finally,one day, i cry for no reason
and i feel better now =)

Now i only realize how brave i am.
Can't believe what i have done
and what i have said recently.
Anyway....is happened already and no return.

Guys, here are some of my advises
(and also what happened recently).

>Maybe what you did is not a problem to you
but is a big serious problem to other people.
>Think more than 10 times before you say or do anything
although you are in eager or mad with someone.
>What you think is not what people think
you don't know what people think
and the person don't know what you think too.
So tell out loud.
>Is not use if you just know how to say,
do it and prove it what you are trying to tell someone.
If you try your best but still can't prove
than follow your heart ....
........................................................................................

One day when i just back from school
my mom told me : "we have decided to buy a new car
and we have given deposit already."
I can't believe what i heard.
My parents discuss this matter for 2 years already.
Just don't know which model to buy.
Even ask my bro and me to vote.....
Anyway is Honda Civic...urban titanium colour.
The car seller said : " When people see this colour
they will know is new car because this is new colour xD"
Waiting my new car.....but still long way to go.....
And maybe they will cancel the order
if they suddenly change their mind
with don't know what unexpected reasons. = =
......................................................................................

O.U.G.....(One day Unity Gathering)
is around the corner.
This is our first year to be in charge
and the last year to be the committee.
Can't wait for that day but still quite sad
because we got to leave the school already
Just 8 months more....
I won't miss school
but i will miss all my friends and memories.
I know is quite early to say this
but still quite sad.

I try to do all the best in this year
but things do not go what we expect.
We always hope for happy ending
but at the end
things end with quarrel and hatres.
How wish time will go back
and i could change everything.

Oh no...
i'm out of topic....
Will update about O.U.G next week.
Tell you guys more about it ya....^^
................................................................................

One last topic.
My exam results is so so so....Terrible !!
I think i will be the last in class.
I am so..... worried my SPM now.
All subject not confident at all.

Wai Yien promises everyone
she will study hard...!!
Hope she will change her lazy and playful attitude.
(My A is flying in the sky now)
(I'm trying to built my long long stairs up)
(Hope my A will not flying in the sky
when SPM comes but in my hand)
.............................................................................
Ok ok...
here's the end of story.
Too long will be too bored.

See ya everyone.
Good news is coming.....
Bad news is going.....

Gambateh...!!!
All the best....^^

19/02/2010

2010-02-21T00:32:00.000+08:00

Hey guys

My crazy cousins and i had a crazy day.

Chinese new year gathering xD

Lazy to type ...

Lets see how we ss.....

Crystal

Evon

Tracy liew

Ashley wong

Kai jie...So cute ^^

Qian ni

And how they crazy......

They too crazy.....
I'm a camerawomen xD

This dolphin to cute...but not mine :(

See ya...

Happy chinese new year

here the end of holidays......=(

Triple Happy.....

2010-02-18T22:40:00.000+08:00

1st Happy Valentine's Day

Is it nice??

Made by fire cracker

Can you feel the

Valentine and Chinese new year mood?? ^^

2nd Happy Chinese New Year

Went back hometown for 3 days.

Nowadays Chinese new year mood

become lesser and lesser.

Guess what i did in hometown.

Most of the time staring on the tv.

My bro and cousin kept on playing

their PSP, NDS Ps2.....

You see!!

Technology make the world change.

Even make us less communicate.

Anyway,

of course got gamble for some time la.

this year no luck.....

hard to win, easy to lose

but just little only xD

and of course. Angpau....xD

3rd Happy Birthday Daddy

17/02/10

Everyone says this cake very nice xD

Keep on ask for some more and more.

Today very special.

Is my daddy birthday.

"Chinese" and "English" birthday fall on same day.

Don't know how many years

finally back to his exact birthday. ^^

Therefore,

we invited my aunt and uncle to our house

as birthday celebration and new year gathering.

In the morning,

we started to prepare food already.

Full of food on the table...yummy..

Din't get to take photo because

too busy until forget = =

Then,

at night we had fun lo.........

Too many camera man

so i din't get to take photo.

Love you dad. muahx..

Anyways....

thats all what i want to write here.

See ya

Bye ^^

1 sec is just like 1 year....

2010-02-13T16:09:00.000+08:00

Guys....!!!
2 week din't touch my comp.

This week quite tough to me :(
Something happened and it seem never end here.
Try to do my best everyday
but it not work for someone.
I'm sorry for everything.
Speechless everyday
just quite and listen what you want to scold or say.

Hope this new year will bring new life to me.

One more thing,
My 1st valentine but nothing special =.=
You know what should you do right ^^

Anyway,
wish you all

Happy New Year

and

Happy Valentine's Day

Angpau.....i'm coming to take you
and my dear friends i'm coming too.
More to update ya...^^

Random....

2010-01-29T23:24:00.000+08:00

Gosh....

I don't know why i'm so so "geram"

until almost explode lately.

How to say...Er.....

I don't know how to say.

Like a same extra puzzle.....

if 1 day the original puzzle lost or spoilt,
this puzzle will replace the old wan.......

(i don't want to write too much la, will be too obvious)

That's all ^^

see ya

Update ^^

2010-01-23T16:46:00.000+08:00

Hey hey....
din't update my blog since school reopened.
I know you guys miss me xD
Seriously so busy and tired.
Homeworks like never ever finish.
Load of activities and tuition too.

Where should i start to write? hmm...

Still remember when yellow house meeting.
Someone asked me:
"Jie Jie...is it everyone has to marching?"
Oh no..i'm getting older.

O ya...9th Jan
We had a area committee gathering.
Most funniest thing someone was so blur....
Something we told her so obvious
but she still so blur and liked din't know anything.
She pretended she knew...
That's the funniest part.
Until now she still don't know what happened.

Then, everything normal lo.
St john...Chinese society...
Tuition...homework...
School...Meeting....Events...
everything repeat every week....
Then 3 weeks gone...=.=

Last.....is today....23/1
Merentas Desa....
I got to sit the ambulance...
yeah...1st time xD
Nothing happened at my checkpoint
just 1 fell down and 1 difficult breathing only.
After finish, teacher fetched us back
but the 2 pengakap guys had to walk.
Sorry and thank you ^^

Back to base.
Couldn't imagine so many people there.
Got to treat few persons. xD
That's the end....

Will update next time ....
See ya....^^

End of holidays

2010-01-02T21:35:00.000+08:00

Went to my cousin birthday party.
Almost half day at the so called "pub".
So tired now....

This might be my last post for school holidays ^^
But still got a lot to go for my new life in school.

I just enjoyed lately...
make me don't feel like going back to school.
Happy moment is always short
and comes late....

Bye guys.....

2010

2010-01-01T23:59:00.000+08:00

I'm so so so happy today...

because is a NEW YEAR....2010...

yeah.....

Went to countdown with my family last minute in sunway.

My heart just at sunway because i should be with them

but i din't go..because of some reasons.

Went to sunway and i kept on searching them

i just brought my parents round and round in sunway.

Supposed could arrive a shop few mins but i just walked a big circle

i hoped i just could meet them and gave them surprise but no luck...

00.00 sharp...

I knew they were just around me

but i couldn't find them...Never mind then.

I love the restaurant
which i could watch the fireworks clearly and not crowded. ^^

Fireworks just made me felt like crying...i don't know why

but not sad just felt touching...^^

My mind just kept on thinking something.

and really happened...should i happy?

i was quite happy actually xD

but i hated my reaction....

After countdown, we rushed to carpark.....lolx.

We scared traffic jam..but still jam there for 1 hour plus.

Gosh...while i was waiting i saw someone
who i don't know how to face him

i not sure was it my friend then i just kept on staring.

Suddenly he turned back and guess what my reaction.?

I shouted "omg" that time =.= and i just reacted like stupid fella..

don't know what to do and looked around side

pretend i din't see anything.

Why i shouted?? i don't know.

My mom asked me why..hope she din't think other way.

I kept on thinking that scene everytime i closed my eyes.

Hope he din't see my reaction....but i think he saw that....x(

I'm gonna prepared myself when i see him at school....

see ya everyone... ^^

streaming...!!!

2009-12-31T00:10:00.000+08:00

Omg..!!
Just heard the news about streaming next year.
I cant believe i'm in 5K.
I thought my friend just kidding but is truth.

I will miss 4C so much.
4C just give me lots of memories.
People there make me feel so warmth just like family.
i will miss you guys so much. ^^
Love you all....muahx

Say hi to 5K.
But i will be so so so......STRESS there.
All smart people there....
I'm gonna kill myself.
No life for form 5.... :(
Really go to war...haiz

Tonight
i will have a bad bad dream..
or even cant fall asleep... =.=

Back to war

2009-12-29T23:22:00.000+08:00

5 more days to go and school reopen soon.....
Suddenly so desperate back to school.

Get ready to the war.....
No more playing ....
No time to rest.
Hectic life is started soon...

I still have 5 more days to recover.
Can i do it??
I don't know but i will try my best ^^

Final ending

2009-12-29T23:12:00.001+08:00

Hey..hey...hey..

Raining session is finally ended.

No more tears to cry.

These few days just too tired about everything.

What i should do, what i should say

i just did it today.

I understand what the answer means.

I finally accept it.

I won't do anything about this again.

Time to let go.

And concentrate on study ^^

The next time you guys see me on school reopen

will be a new wai yien ^^

After Xmas

2009-12-29T23:10:00.000+08:00

26/12/09

Back to hometown xD

And we had a BBQ.

This was the best BBQ ever that i had.

We planning to have another BBQ on chinese new year.

Chickens...

And Chickens...

Hotdogs and fishes....

Yummy....xP

Finally we clear all the food....

Then, back to gambling....xD

Mahjong

While some of them playing playstation, psp....

Chatting around....

-End-

Xmas eve

2009-12-29T22:58:00.000+08:00

24/12/09

Xmas eve should be happy right?
So i decided to join my friends to lagoon xD
When i arrived there only knew that there were 3 of us only.
But we had a lot of fun there ^^

nice view right?

Say hi to our organizer ^^

Only guy

Me xD

We were siting cup....

Can you me me and soon yong?? haha

So call shoe ride...

I love this pirate ship so much..

It was awesome.

Hang up 360...

We went to swimming pool too.

Something happened in the "river".

I dropped my spec in the water.

That time i knew i was stepping my spec.

But when i moved a bit then lost it.

Walk around the river for almost 1 hour i think?

They kept on asking me to give up and played other games first.

But did i have mood to play other game? No..

Finally, thanks God.

A guy found my spec.

But i forgot how that guy looked like.

Din't where spec ma..

Later we liked stalking that guy's brother.

Cause yu hsuan wanted to see how the guy looked like xD

But we couldn't find him.

Anyway thanks a lot to him

Time to say goodbye

Went back home almost 7 night.

But home was so so quiet...............

And i got scold by parents badly =.=

Because i din't picked their calls

and din't call back home while i was enjoying.

Luckily i found back my spec if not i would get scold more badly.

Today really a good starting but bad ending.

Got scold by parents for few days

and no outgoing anymore....haiz...

Said goodbye to all the upcoming activities :(

Anniversay

2009-12-29T22:16:00.000+08:00

I'm back.

Now i have my mood back to update.

23/12/09

Guess what so special today?

Yeah...yeah...

My "Mom and Dad 24th Wedding Anniversary"

We went to Victoria station to have our dinner ^^

Our delicious dishes xP............

But i forgot what the name already xD

Here our group photo...

Wish mom and dad live happy ever together....

Love..muahx

X'mas present...??

2009-12-26T00:57:00.000+08:00

I keep on telling myself

no matter what happened i won't cry on x'mas..

Everything happened just let it be and forget about it.

Be a good girl..

Don't do anything wrong

Be careful when i talk

Think before i react

I really try very very hard

but i don't know why

i just do nothing but i get scold hardly...

Something that is normal..and i do it everyday

but today seem like something eyesore or irritate to someone.

Now i always feel like i will get scold anytime any moment.

Even now i'm posting.

Is it once i did wrong than it means i will forever did wrong?

Once i did wrong bring whole life suffer?

I really can't withstand what just happened lately.

Too many things happened in the same time.

I don't know where my tears come from?

Just like running water that never stop.

Happy moment just like few seconds

but all those unhappy and scary moments
like days and years....

My parents asked what i want for my xmas present.

I didn't say anything...nothing.

But what i really want is happy.

I want forget every bad memories and forgiveness from everyone.

But this will never happened right?

Except one day miracle or accident happened

that i lost all my memories.

This is what i get for my xmas present.

-signed off-

A present that never give to you

2009-12-20T22:55:00.000+08:00

Break in house!
Break my heart!
nothing left....
nothing to break anymore.
Why don't break my mind, clear my mind.
So i won't keep on thinking.
Do something stupid, repeat my mistake and make me regret.

What should i do now?
I did something terrible and unbelievable.
Is too sudden to me.
I can't believe i will say that.

What am i thinking is it truth?
The truth just explain why i did all those things.
What i have done before is it just a lie?
Why should i lie then?

Is there any chances anymore?
Should i think about that or just forget about it?
If no then how long it take to heal my wound?
You have been so deeply in my heart.
My mind just all about you now.
If yes then what should i do?
Is just too contradict if i say yes.

Why i make it so complicated?

Love isn't blind?

No matter what either one of us did wrong

we just can forgive each other unconditionally. Isn't it?

But i really did something that i can't even forgive myself

so how could i ask you to forgive me anymore.

Is it really the last time i heard that kind of words from you?

Every question just make another question to occur.
Just like what happened to us.

-signed off-

What a gathering??

2009-12-19T16:55:00.000+08:00

18/12/09
Yesterday,
3D gathering was held at sunway pyramid.
But so called 3D gathering just 7 persons attended.
(me, yu hsuan, yen lin, chuan wei, shi hui, ser hwei, tzi ying)
3D still had some class fee.
So we use to buy for movie AVATAR.
Overall just needed to pay RM2 per ticket :)

Then,
we went to secret recipe to have our lunch.
We had fun there...and talked along with each other xD
After that,
we took some group pictures.

Girls only...xD

Chuan wei (the only guy) was the christmas tree ^^

Went to cinema and bought some drinks.

When the movie just started few minutes...

i received a call from my mom.

She said "do you wanna come back?"

I laughed " the movie just start only. why?"

"our house get break in by thieves, come back and check what have you lost"

Gosh...i'm totally speechless and don't know what to to.

I want to watch movie...darm thieves..

We had 3D gathering at sunway
but the thieves gathered at my house x(

Went back home, what i saw.....my house

Broke my lock..

Where's my lcd??

They even stole the remote control and whole set of tv...

how smart they are!!

Now we use 21 feet small tv to watch (half he lcd) x(

Even XO also stole x(

I don't know why they stole house phone??

Where is my laptop?? Stoled..

That's how they broke my master room door !!!

Can you see many things lost...??

My jewelleries...!!!

How messy??

Omg??

Phone?? Watches?? Wallets??

My brothers gonna faint to clear these..

I lost my portable dictionary(my pmr present)

..and necklace x(

But my roon is neat depends on other rooms.

Maybe they not enough time or they saw too much books..xD

Total lost : LCD, laptop, watches, phones, bag, wallets, moneys, XO, 2 portable dictionary,

signature pad, even my basket also stole to pack the items and jewelleries...x(

Our passport also got stole...gosh...

I think got lost around 30k ba..x'(

Guess what my "beloved" neighbours told us??

Neighbour 1 : I heard somebody shout but no one in. Then i din't care.

Neighbour 2 : I saw someone carries the LCD, I thought you took your tv to repair.

The car is Waja too same as your car...and they are chinese..owh...(disgrace la)

How smart my neighbours are??? Haiz..

We went to police station to report.

Then they came my house, took some photo, and asked this and that.

They tried to took fingerprint but they said din't have any fingerprint left.

Actually we thought that the polices were not very serious while checking.

They just simply checked and said dont have.

Maybe was not murder case so they just checked around.

At night,

all of us busy clean our house and we gotta found our all resits to claim insurance..

But still some resits where lost and we just can claim 1/3 of insurance only..

still cant get back what we had lost..

We also heard my mom friends house also broke in by thieves.

Her child was in the house too.

Luckily they din't hurt him and just asked him to cover his head.

The child saw them are chinese and they took just 15 mins to stole all the things.

So we suspected that they were same gang and my house was the first incident.

Because we lost the most....x(

My mom kept on blame herself

because din't keep back the jewelleries to bank..

Saw her liked that i also very sad le.

Hope she don't think too much.

Now we quite worry that they will back again

because got some house got broke in few times.

We going to set alarm i think?

Maybe adopt a dog too...

How we hope that our dog is still here...

maybe the thieves won't broke in.

I miss you, my beloved doggy, Victor

Why this world so unfair.

How hard we earn money and work only can leave in this nice house

but what we have just taken by thieves in few mins..

and now they just keep on do the same things to earn money.

Hope they will get caught soon...

Police please do something la...

Haiz...

Now don't know angry or sad???

Just speechless with all of these...

signed off..

Memories

2009-12-16T00:52:00.000+08:00

Nothing to do holidays..

Suddenly miss everyone that i changed my life..

So...lets have a flash back of memories...!! ^^

6E/2005

6 years of classmate

now 10 years of friendships..

6E gang..

(Edwin's birthday)

2C/2007

2 years of classmate but lots of memories

Still remember we won for many competitions..xD

Specially CHORAL SPEAKING

We have a blog for 2 cekap too.

www.twocekaposeven.blogspot.com

3D/2008

Sampat boys gang here

Form 3 totally change my life

A lot of first time happened.

All thick and thin make me grown up a lots.

4C/2009

Form 4 life totally different

but next year will be more tough

Learn a lot this year.

3 most important things i have learnt

1. Health and study...which one more important?

2. How to care and love our beloved

3. Clear, know what we do and don't regret

Class party

Luckily we din't streaming.

Next year will be a better year

guys gambateh for spm..xP

Chinese society/2009

Chinese gang here...

No banana..xD

St john/2009

The best and greatest AGM performance..^^

Love st john lots....

Want to grow up?? Join us

Best friends forever

4 years friendship...and more come

Some of them even 10 years..

Although sometime we seldom talk

but still we know our friendship will last forever.

Memories will never fade

And friendship will never lost

May our friendship will last forever

Friends forever...

Muahx

Happy 21th Birthday my bro ^^

2009-12-15T23:34:00.000+08:00

Nothing much to say....
Just a cake and wishes...
No present for you xD
As long as i'm truly wish for you..
Just wish you all the best and best of luck in everything.

My bro love to act cool.
And also take picture...xD
This picture quite a long time ago
but i still remember when we took this picture
At Penang...28/09/08.
That day was a nightmare for me :(

Once again
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...!!